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Cant express much about this without crying lol... [Aug. 30th, 2013|02:28 am]
Alien girl
But I am a happy woman. I'm off to uni in less than a month. I know there's no guarantee but I am hoping it gives me a chance of getting a job that isnt cleaning bogs, and a chance to give my little boy the life he deserves. As I said in my earlier post, after the shit time I had at school, teachers who didn't give a fuck, as long as they got what they wanted they were happy.

This time it has been very different, I accept that at this time in my life I am more willing to learn and ya know what? I've enjoyed every fucking minute of it, thanks to my tutors. If they were anything like the pack of eggplants who taught me in my secondary school days, I would never have stayed on the course, let alone completed the whole lot with 100% distinctions. My faith in the education system = RESTORED!

The four who helped me change my life and realise my potential, Cath Fortune, John Tyson, John Earland and Julia Meredith, to them I will forever be grateful. I cried like a pathetic whiny little bitch last time I saw them because I was gutted to be leaving Middlesbrough College, I told them about it, because all of it, the learning, the encouragement, the positivity, the praise, the grades and the support, I've never had that before. Until my time at Middlesbrough College, no fucker on this planet told me I could do it, most people laughed or said "I'll believe it when I see it". Yeah well when they see it, they'd better fucking believe it. Right now, I know my ambitions, I know my future and I AM going to have it.

Lyrics to a song that was played at the start of my access course
Heather Small - Proud

I look into the window of my mind
Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I'm on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same (yeah)

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

Still so many answers I don't know (there are so many answers)
Realize that to question is how we grow (to question is to grow)
So I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I'm on my way
Can't stop me now
You can do the same (yeah)

What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?

(yeah) We need a change (Yeah)
Do it today (yeah)
I can feel my spirit rising
(change, yeah) We need a change (yeah)
So do it today (yeah)
'Cause I can see a clear horizon

What have you done today to make you feel proud? (to make you feel proud)
(let me hear ya X3)So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
(yeah)'Cause you could be so many people
Just make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?

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